I want a Korean boyfriend!

Hahahaha. I’m serious about the subject ok. Two things fuel this sudden wish of mine. Firstly, I was accompanying my mom last night, watching a Korean boy band concert, TVXQ. I was inspired by their slick dance moves and decent enough vocals. Of course, having good looks is a bonus!

Secondly, I met a cute Korean guy while out with the girls on Friday night. Most of you might not know this but I’ve a soft spot for guys with small eyes. Haha. This is the truth! Doubt it not. Anyway, he seems like a nice guy. He is here for a holiday and he’s based in Sydney, Australia. Needless to say, it’s pointless to pursue this any further. He’s gonna be in Singapore tomorrow morning onwards for a week. Then it’s back home to Australia.

Here’s a pic of the cute Korean boy I met.

Next year, die die also must go Sydney! Hahaha.

It’s been a quiet weekend. I’ve missed my first ever Indian wedding this morning because I was working late through the night. Before any of you start imagining horror scenarios of me slogging it off alone in the office at the wee hours of the morning, I was working at home.

Proof reading my annual Christmas catalogue took me quite a while, as I had to ensure that the blurbs, book covers and prices are correct. Have to send them out to Singapore and Australia for viewing by today. Sigh……

I feel very very exhausted now. Not just with work but with life as well.

5ive

aargh! i got tagged by Foo and rite after he got home too.

so here it is.

5 Things In Our Bag:

• wallet
• handphone
• keys
• lip balm
• comb

5 Things In Our Wallet:

• IC
• cash
• credit card transaction slips
• credit cards
• ATM cards

5 Things We Like Most In Our Room:

• my doggie, sam (soft toy lar)
• my bed
• my study/work desk
• the wall (i painted it myself! a nice shade of blue)
• the dressing table (all my war paint’s there!)

5 Things We’d Like To Try:

• scuba diving
• bungee jumping
• sky diving
• travel around the world
• be a food critique (haha!)

5 Things We’re Doing Now:

• thinking how to answer this damn thing
• typing it out
• working, OT in fact
• eating a slice of mooncake to stave off hunger pangs
• fantasising about my (possible) bali trip next january

i believe!

i MUST believe that good things come to those who wait.

i must….

the truth hurts

however, it sets us free. hehe. sometimes ppl wonder y am i so adamant about chasing after the truth, even though it’ll hurt when u know the outcome. well, firstly, i’m persistent and inquisitive by nature. secondly, i like to be in the know. that puts me in control.

for me, i feel that the truth is usually elusive. it’s usually easier to lie ur way out of an uneasy situation or avoid the topic altogether. telling the truth n accepting it takes guts. n i like ppl with guts. i like to think of myself as a girl with guts too.

having said that, i’ve finally gotten the answer to all my unanswered questions. it was painful but well worth it. at least i’m in a position to make informed decisions.

i gotta thank this person though. for being so transparent n tolerant with me. it’s been great spending time with u. i enjoyed every minute of it n all the memories we’ve created will remain treasured in my heart forever.

i thank u sincerely, from the bottom of my heart. i wish u well…

my secret crush

well, now that i’m writing about it here, i guess it’s not so secret anymore eh?

there’s this guy that i spotted in college. the moment i laid eyes on him, i was intrigued. i wanted to know this person. i want to understand wat makes him tick, wat’re his hobbies, wat’re his likes n dislikes, his quirks n habits, etc. call it weird but i had a major crush on him the moment i saw him.

this crush lasted for a whole year! throughout that year, i nvr had a chance to talk to him. it was alwiz me admiring him from afar. i got help from a friend who picked the same major as him. he enrolled me into acct club so that i could’ve a chance to know him.

as it turns out, that was his final sem. he graduated not long after n i still didnt get to know him. i oso found out he got himself a gf. of cos i was heartbroken n disappointed… but it wasnt the suicidal kinda heartbreak la.

all of us lost touch with each other after a few yrs. suddenly i bumped into my buddy n we wondered where’d my crush go to? so i called out of the blue, hoping he’ll remember me although we didnt know each other well. he neither answered my calls nor replied my sms….

few days later, he called back. he’s in saudi arabia! wat a very pleasant surprise. i was ecstatic to hear from him. we made plans to catch up when he’s back and now he’s back for a week.

now, i’m trying to live by the motto carpe diem. i dont wanna die tmr and then realise that i’ve unfinished matters ie. a few things that i should’ve said or done. so i confessed to him that i had a major crush on him for a whole year in college. he’s very cool bout the whole thing, i gotta give him credit for that. he asked if i’m ok with the whole thing now, if i’m affected by the matter.

my answer to u is this:

u’re someone very special to me. i dunno why but i felt a connection immediately when i saw u. u know i dont believe in love/feelings at first sight. u’re the only person who’s ever had this effect on me. if u’re wondering whether i still have feelings for u, i do. how can i forget someone whom i’ve been secretly admiring for a whole year?

i know we hardly know each other. we dont understand even a sliver of each other’s characters. honestly, i do hope that i’ll be given a chance to know u better. but, i oso know that distance n timing is a big hindrance for now. therefore, i will not pursue this any further.

u’ll alwiz be someone very special to me. u’ve been very understanding, considerate, sweet n also supportive of me during my challenging moments. tks for ur sympathetic ear when i needed it most. i really do appreciate it.

i wish u all the best with ur life ahead. that u’ll be happy n healthy alwiz. u’re constantly in my thoughts n know that, u have a friend in me…

4th love

gosh the number of exes i’ve had is really starting to pile on isnt it? haha.

4th love

this is probably one of my few regrets in life. he was a close friend’s ex. we’ve hung out in a group due to his relationship with my friend. after a few yrs, they broke up n he took it very very badly. somehow, i became his confidante n we became super close friends. we hung out all the time. i was close buddies to all his buddies. tmn tun dr ismail became my playground. we were like brothers. i often helped him with his girl chasing antics.

i guess the breakup with my friend affected him badly. he jus transformed into being a player. changing girlfriends every mth or so. i dont object to his lifestyle choices but i did tell him that it’ll be better if he could just focus on other things in life first. his entire family liked me a lot. despite all these, we’ve made a pact nvr to cross the line as we value our friendship too much to wreck it. we remained buddies for a year plus.

then one day, the inevitable happened. his family had been putting pressure on him to stop fooling around n to consider me instead. it was an incredibly stupid idea. over the mths, he changed his mind. suddenly, he jus realised that perhaps he shud stop chasing after girls he hardly know n focus on the one he really understands n vice versa. i pooh pooh-ed the idea immediately, stating that we’re not each other’s type n that i dun trust him cos of his player ways.

he was very persistent. kept brainwashing me into accepting his proposal n convincing me that it’ll work. my biggest concern then, was that we’ll ruin the friendship if it doesnt work out. i warned him that this is no game to me n that if we go ahead, there’s no turning back.

he succeeded in changing my mind n we got together for bout 3 mths. pathetic eh? he treated me very well for the 1st 2 mths. the honeymoon period. haha. after that it went downhill quickly. he decided that he didnt wanna get tied down n broke it off with me. over the phone. needless to say, we’ve not spoken to each other since.

i hated him for not taking our friendship seriously, for not taking my feelings into consideration at all. of cos he broke my heart. but it was more of the betrayal i felt that got to me. wat an idiot. well, him of cos!

during the time he was courting me, his best friend and his best friend’s brother were also courting me. haha. complicated? u bet! like i said, my life’s full of "excitement".

a few ppl have actually mentioned that i shud be happy i’ve had so many relationships. cos that shows that i’m good enough for more than one guy. come on… to me, it shows that i failed to maintain those relationships. the higher the number, the more i’m a failure. i’m really a simpleton at heart looking for a person to share my life with. 5 exes is more than enough. really.

hope & disappointment

i’m taking a hiatus from my regular blog cos of the disorientation i’m feeling due to some unhappy incident in my life. i tend to write regardless of watever emotion i’m feeling. happy, sad, angry, etc. watever that needs expression, i write.

but watever happened last week, has really taken my breath away. i just cant seem to find the energy or inspiration to write anymore.

i cant believe that i’ve been fooled again. i pride myself on being intelligent enuf. somehow, my heart won over my head. n i was fooled by someone whom i now feel isnt worth it at all.

this question has flashed past my mind many times. how many pcs of shit do we have to go thru b4 we really find our diamond in the rough?

i respect those who’ve the persistency of an ant. they nvr give up. i salute u. cos i’m on the verge of giving up. so so tired…

be the change u want

this article provokes the mind n that’s wat i like bout it. read thru it n think bout wat change u want to initiate in ur life (or other’s for that matter) n make it happen.

wat i want in a man

as requested by ruihang, here’s a list of criteria that i would love for my partner to have but believe it’s almost impossible to find. hehe.

here goes:

• intelligent. as in able to hold interesting discussions when necessary, has an opinion of his own and knows how to make decisions in a tough situation.
• sense of humour, able to laugh at himself when in an embarrassing or silly situation
• straightforward and direct, meaning no beating around the bush. cos i’m that way so i expect my partner to be able to take shit n give shit when necessary
• possesses a heart of gold. caring, sensitive and considerate.

n that’s it, the rest r all irrelevant in the sense that i can do with or without them. notice that looks is not part of the package? cos character’s what matters to me. there u go ruihang, request granted.

does my list match your expectations? or did u think that i’ll come up with a list different from this?

saying thank u

thank u.

one of the 5 magic words u learned i kindergarten. i’m sure most of u would’ve known bout the 5 magic words n its uses if u’ve attended kindy.

funny how most ppl dint use it then. they probably dont realise that sometimes, a simple thank u is all it takes to elicit a smile or bring joy to someone’s life.

it’s simple manners to thank the person who serves u. even if u’re paying for the service.

so let’s practice some simple courtesy more often in our lives shall we?